Strange Days pt 10

I made mistakes in trust, introducing my monsters by name to anyone other than the Gods 

I made mistakes in thinking everyone responds to the way I care, in kind. 

I made mistakes in thinking patience, support and love would be returned- instead finding resistance and anger from the voice of strife and ever changing rules of engagement from where I found comfort 

I made mistakes in thinking I could be valued for trying to be what I want to see in this world 

I made mistakes in thinking I was being strong, by being vulnerable 

I made mistakes in believing others treat vulnerability as a precious gift rather than a distasteful act to be disdained 

Lilith instructed not to let these experiences make me cruel, cold and uncaring

Even though I wish it, believing it will take my pain away, it is not my nature