Strange Days pt 4

Lilith asks me to hold a mirror 

Lilith questions my ability to see the patterns she places in front of me.

I want to add light to other’s darkness hoping it illuminates my own 

I behave as the person I ‘need’ in the world, hoping for the same return 

I seek safety and non judgement for my past and the monsters I carry with me from then. 

I want to be seen, treasured and loved. I give so much to ensure this because I believe my own person is not enough 

I crave community to make up for being alone 

It has created a lack of self that is easily wounded 

‘Do you see how these patterns lead you to what they do?’ 

I feel sick