My nervous system reacts. 

Not only to the immediate moment 

but to all the ‘moments’ that came before. Moments that were never healed. 

Moments there were no breaks from. 

I do not welcome this. 

It’s not an overreaction to the now 

It’s safety training stuck in high alert 

Bind me in loving restraints 

Tell me I’m a good girl 

My nervous system reacts
Safely in the moment
Releasing some of the moments that came before
Healed
Breaking
I welcome this
It’s opening into the now
Safely retraining dialling down the alert
Bind me in loving restraints
Tell me I’m a good girl