Day Break

I stood in the grayed in dawn , the silence and took in a big breath.

The noise in my head has been so loud, the pain that comes along with that has been so sharp.

The inner and outer worlds have been clashing for a while. I’ve tried to hold steady.

The faint trace of smoke is in the air, as I breathe down into my lungs and push my feet into the cold cold grass.

Touchstones, the cold of the grass reminds me I’m real, the taste of the smoke reminds me I’m real, I haven’t yet disappeared, I haven’t yet faded with the mist of the dawn.

I do not know if today holds battle, or a blessed retreat and peace. All I know is in this fractured moment I find stillness.