Fuck you for misunderstanding me with out forgiveness
Fuck you for not trusting your place in my life
Fuck you for thinking I was not worthy of growth
Fuck you for wanting me to stay at your beck and call
Fuck you for pretending I mattered as a person
Fuck you for expecting me to be your lapdog
Fuck you for your unacknowledged issues
Fuck you for being ok knocking me down
Fuck you for demanding I give things up that were making me happy
Fuck you for walking away
Fuck you for withdrawing your support
Fuck you for waking the unworthy feelings buried inside me
Fuck you for standing by while my mental health fell apart
Fuck you for deciding it was ok because I gave you your way
Fuck you for gaslighting me
Fuck you for not helping me get better
Fuck you for being passive as long as I behave
Fuck you for your lack of care for my pain
Fuck you for not being sorry
Fuck you for being angry
Fuck you for being jealous
Fuck you engaging me and walking without explanation
Fuck you for breaking my trust
Fuck you for silence
Fuck you for not listening
Fuck you for judging me
Fuck you for not caring
Fuck you for your possession
Fuck you for your temper
Fuck you for the guilt
Fuck you for the pain this has caused
Fuck you for the apology I will never get
Fuck you for your expectations
Fuck you for the sabotage
Fuck you for the fake support
Fuck you for every anxiety attack that grew from this poison
Fuck you for your lack of kindness
Fuck you for your lack of compassion
Fuck you for waking up parts that were asleep
Fuck you for the binding
Fuck you for being a liar
Fuck you for letting me take the blame for everything
Fuck you for being ok that I gave up
Fuck you for the space this take up in my head
Fuck you for giving the monsters more fuel
Fuck you for shaming me for who I was growing into
Fuck you for every tear I have cried
Fuck me for falling for it
Fuck me for taking the easy out
Fuck me for giving up
Fuck me for being silent
Fuck me for wearing shame like a cloak
Fuck me for trusting
Fuck me for not using my voice
Fuck me for giving up after trying my voice a little
Fuck me for only screaming in my head
Fuck me for fearing getting mad
Fuck me for being afraid of being abandoned
Fuck me for needing to be seen
Fuck me for being stuck in this place
Fuck me for believing in loyalty
Fuck me for not thinking I matter
Fuck me for not feeling strong enough to grow on my own
Fuck me for my lack of self love
Fuck me for my abundance of self loathing
Fuck me for expecting I mattered enough to apologize to
Fuck me for willingly taking all the responsibility
Fuck me for hoping that someone would notice
Fuck me for shrinking inside
Fuck me for rebuilding my prison
Fuck me for not being able to trust
Fuck me for not placing the good things above this
Fuck me for every tear I choked on because
Fuck me for patterned self sabotage
Fuck me for not screaming FUCK YOU
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