Tower

Breathless I wait…… the vibrations of change are beginning. I can feel them. This is needed. The Tower, yet again begins to roil.
For the last while I have been required to be present, clear, steady, a safe harbour. A shelter ( oh I do this so well)
I feel deeply
My loyalty steadfast
Can I see the end of the nightmare that is not mine?
Rally love, you have it in you. Rally love, this is your place. Rally love, we’ve walked this way before.
The Tower pitches and cracks. Can I hold the steadfast harbour for you with one hand and ride out the inner rollercoaster, holding on to myself with the other?
I can. I will. I’ve got it in me. This is my place. I’ve walked this way before. But this time a new path will now be made. We shall not come to pass this way again

Fae For Show

There was a dark Fae named Aubergine. She had healing magic, the ability to spin a tale or two. Her heart was kind, her soul gentle. The spirits of the Wood could whisper in her ear. She could call the dark or light, depending where balance was needed. Content she was, to be in the trees. To read the stars, to listen to the symphony that the Mother has made. 

She had her admirers, she had her users too. 

He would come, lay his heart at her feet. Shy offerings of love to win her favour. She alighted to him. The house became a home. 

The walls grew thick, the air dry. Her sparkle grew dim, the magic muted. Resigned to grey. But the spark never died.

Air began to blow on the spark. Cradle it she did. The glow became too much to hide. Her wings began to expand.

He looked high and low to find what now must lie at her feet. For he remember then Aubergine, as she glowed, not the grey. What he found at her feet was a reflection. Greys streaked with chains of red. He remembered what he believed was his.

Gilded bars of protection, erected in pride. For all to bare witness. Behold, the wild she. She is mine, no better will it ever be, no love to ever match. 

Behold the wild Fae, how much she is mine. How lucky I am. 

Now at her feet lie the bloody offerings of proof that he, and he alone be the air, water, fire and earth she need. That spirit will be shared. The tales be spun when it is deemed convenient. But if the Wood, and Stars wanted to speak. If the Mother sent messages to build the light. Explained it had to be. Justified. 

Quiet she sits in the castle build for her. Everything she is told she needs. With loving pride, what a good man am I?

She knows, Love is the motivation. Fear is the cause. Her voice lost to the Ether. Airless perfection until it isn’t. What shall happen to the blessed Fae?

My Words

When I give of my words and they are lost to silence
I have time to contemplate
The message that I send
The message left to take

Measured out carefully,
meaning, well conveyed
Are words truly a connection
Or just a game well played.

As words are misinterpreted
Silence can be too
Words can be balms or arrows
But empty pierces through

Pointed words lost to the void
Are in their proper place
But kindness lost to this vacuum
Leaves a wounded space

Finding Forward

Love each other, be kind, be open,
forgive the monsters you can,
battle those you can’t.
Support each other in love
See truth in another’s eyes
Be willing to let go the phantom chains
Step forward, for you- not me, not them,
what anyone else believes or thinks matters not. If you know your self, your heart and your truth- trust, trust someday it will be seen, loved and accepted. Trust that you are, will be and always have been enough

Explore

What do you hear when my lips part?
A passionate sigh
An orgasm not yet moaned
A banshee wail
A soothing word
A hard cut
Lies you want to hear
Truth you don’t

What do you see when you look in my eyes?
Passion and fire
Monster damaged shadows
Gentle loved reflection of who you are
Cold calculation
Uncried tears, waiting 
Fool
Ancient knowledge

What is your instinct when you touch me?
Treasured
Owned
Used
Thrown away
Imprisioned
Gift
Freedom

The Night Before

a birthday poem

Forty six years ago, on the night before, what did you think? Could you tell I was coming? Were you excited? Worried? I know so little……. Did you know you were having a girl? Did you have other names picked out? Did you dream of the person you’d hope I’d be?

Forty six years later on the night before, what do I think? Do I know where I am going? Am I excited? Worried? I know so little……. Do I even yet, feel like a full grown woman? Do I embody my name, my roles? Am I the person I dreamt I’d be?

For Lily, while we wait for the bus

The sun blotted out everything
But your laugh
Like fairy bells, it dances through my soul 

Your face comes into focus
Brightness shines in your eyes
Infinite trust in your smile 

Time has past so quickly
No more the chubby little hand reaching
Now, talk of phones, clothes and dance

But time has not stolen the laugh, light or love. 
We march forward together
I grow old as you grow up