Tag: anxiety

My Darkness

It swallows me whole.

I feel it pull me under.

My feet of lead

I fight to break the surface

Gulping for air

Reaching

Down I go again

It fills my lungs with sticky tar

My body heavy

It covers my ears

Silence screaming

Filling my mouth

Pushing in on me

My heart pounding

My fight slows

Each movement harder than the last

I reach

Nothing

No hands to grasp

No strength to lift

Farther down I go

The darkness now matching pressure

I let go

Give in

It slows the pain

Try to draw breath

Choking on the muck

Close my eyes

Heartbeat slows

It swallows me whole

Pass this way

Breathless I wait…….
The vibrations of change are beginning. I can feel them. This is needed. The Tower, yet again begins to roil. 
For the last while I have been required to be present, clear, steady, a safe harbour. 
A shelter ( oh I do so well)
I feel deeply 
My loyalty steadfast
Can I see the end of your nightmare? Mine?
Rally love, you have it in you. Rally love, this is your place. Rally love, we’ve walked this way before. 
The Tower pitches and cracks. Can I hold steadfast harbour for you with one hand, and ride out the inner rollercoaster, holding on to myself with the other?
I can. I will. I’ve got it in me. This is my place. I’ve walked this way before. But this time a new path will be made. We shall not come to pass this way again.