Tell Me

My nervous system reacts.
Not only to the immediate moment
but to all the ‘moments’ that came before. Moments that were never healed.
Moments there were no breaks from.
I do not welcome this.
It’s not an overreaction to the now
It’s safety training stuck in high alert
Bind me in loving restraints
Tell me I’m a good girl

My nervous system reacts
Safely in the moment
Releasing some of the moments that came before
Healed
Breaking
I welcome this
It’s opening into the now
Safely retraining dialling down the alert
Bind me in loving restraints
Tell me I’m a good girl