Duality

I’m watching the rain in the sun.
Wrestling with my brain.
How appropriate that it’s raining, the sun is shining
I want to apologize
To you
To myself
I am disappointed at the compromises
Of self
I have made
I’m making plans to be better
As I sink
I return to ‘her’
I want to be me
The one I think you see
The unfuzzy
The unmasked
I want to apologize
To you
To myself
I’m watching the sun in the rain
Wrestling with my heart
How appropriate the sun is shining in the falling rain